Saturday blues ...well grays

It is a rainy gray Saturday but I have been super productive. Like more productive than I have been in a while. Currently though I am sitting with magoo on a spare bed in my inlaws spare bedroom while he plays with some toy that Is Usually found at a doctors office. He is very into the toy so I thought I would throw a little word goodness atcha. You're welcome.this is literally going to be a rambling of just about anything. Again you're welcome

I love rainy days. I mean I really really love them. I don't even mind if I need to go out in the rain it's all good. I prefer rainy days, they are just my cup of tea. I am just sitting here trying to sell my couch. Anyone interested? Oh an dining room set and patio set. We need to get rid of them because we are moving once again, but this time we are moving back to PA. However we don't have room for this stuff so it's gotta go. Super frustrating let me tell ya. 

Tomorrow we have tuxes with he Florida bound guys that will be fun it's like this whole wedding planning thing is coming along . Today I had a makeup trial/girls day/bridal gift day. It was sweet two of my Florida bound bridesmaids have me a little something something for being a bride. I tell you  what , I have he best bridesmaids ever. Like for real they are 4 of the best people in the world and I am so absolutely lucky to have hem in my life. If any of you girls read this I love you so muc, my life would not be the same without you in it. 

I am starting to feel more bridal. Is that weird like it feels more like I'm becoming a bride even though Bret and I have lived together for the last 3 years and have a son it's like dude you're stuck with me whether you like it or not. Ha your loss on freedom. But it's getting real like not only am I going to be a mom but also a wife. I know that sounds corny but it's an awesome feeling. 

Right now I just wanna get in my comfys and snuggle and watch a movie any kind of movie once magoo is asleep. Otherwise it's Disney JR in our house.

Well magoo wants some milk, I think he's getting tired...

Until next time...do good things!

sometimes I pump...

hey hey hey kids, i figured id go with the obvious here as a new mom that nurses. Sometimes, I pump! And let me tell you it is one of the most annoying tasks of nursing ever. I mean Magoo is sleeping so its not like he can nurse right now plus we nee to build the supply. but to be honest I'm not even sure I've been doing it right.

Magoo is gaining weight and we get great reports from his pediatrician but i never was given any helpful hints when he was born about making sure he was latched on and how long to nurse and all the right things to do. I don't know if this is more a mommy Monday type of blog but i couldn't care less. This week you're getting what ya get.  

I dont usually whip it out in public to nurse Magoo, I have been lucky enough to either feed him before or when we get home. Or I go to the family bathroom. I know it is my legal right to nurse my son wherever I am and be proud. But here's the deal. My choice to nurse is not your choice to see it happen. If you nurse in public that is awesome and I absolutely am in awe of you. I just could never get the nads to just whip it out.

Now dont get me wrong I have nursed my son at a restaurant right at the table as i ate we were covered and no one said a thing, if the would have well it would not have ended well, for them. But I just never was comfortable to do it while walking in a store that everyone knew what was going on. I have nursed magoo while he was in his ergo carrier so that no one could see.

I never had the day 1 second 1 here is how to latch and pump and make sure that you switch to the other side NONE OF THAT happened. My nurses were A JOKE. i still have some sadness when it comes to Magoo's birth. I will touch on that Monday, Long story short i felt like i was shoved in the back room and forgot about. I didn't even get to see MY obgyn, not even once. It was HORRIBLE.


Anyway back to where this all started. Pumping its not my favorite, I would rather just nurse.Its the time that I get with Magoo, no one else can do that for me. Its one on one time with my son we bond and its beautiful and I will never ever get that time alone with him ever again so I embrace it for everything it is worth. I don't know im literally rambling at this point about a subject that to me is a personal choice and i don't get into the you're great or you're terrible. Who cares what one mom does and another one doesn't do. We are all moms our choices for our own kids are great what ever they are. Love me or like me but I don't raise my kids to be how you want them to be. I raise them to not be little assholes you see on the street. and if that is done by nursing ever other one, well that's what I will do!

See this whole ramble session started because I had to pump and I didn't want to because its loud and sometimes it hurts and then the parts need to be cleaned and now its 11:04 at night and I just wanna go to bed. Good Lord what will happen when I really have something I was to get off my chest?

Until next time... Do good things!

Wedding Wednesday... what do we have planned??

So first and foremost I already told you I suck at this blogging thing. Which is why if you are counting for the week we are missing Tuesday. Yep I didn't have anything for Tuesday, I didn't know what to blog about didn't have a theme or idea or anything so I went to bed. Case Closed nothing too special about why there wasn't a blog I was just tired.

And Right now I should be  am working my second job... well i guess this is my only job at his point. But I'm doing that and decided what the hell. We need a Wedding Wednesday (insert cheers and applause here)

Our wedding....Is still going to be outside, still going to be in October and still going to be in Pennsylvania. So that's all still happening. The last Wedding Wednesday I did about plans was literally over a year and a half ago. And that's all fine and dandy however everything has changed.

So here goes....

Our wedding is going to be on Saturday October 24th 2015 at 2:30 in the afternoon, We are going to be getting married in one of two places either on a golf Course or in the Barn at our venue. The venue is a swim club that has different locations at said swim club that we will be able to use. The Reception will be in the same place. Okay so the Reception is in what is called the Paddock Room at Mermaid Lake in Blue Bell PA. They have a 9 hole golf course and a barn . So we have the Reception site nailed down. but we are waiting on the exact ceremony location. Pretty much just repeated what I just said but its that important i said it twice. 

Bret will be staying with his guys at a hotel the nigh before and I will be at my mommy's house with my Maid of Honor and any bridesmaids that wanna come hang out. And where i get ready the morning before is still in the air. Hey we have 3ish months to get it together. 

Our wedding colors are still Navy blue, Cream, champagne and now also Burlap and Lace.. Does that count as a color or a theme? I'm not sure but that's what it is. I have a ton of ideas for what I want to do and know how to do them and just need the funds to help with making the ideas a reality. 

I have my dress, its fantastic looks something like this 

Im Kidding.....Or am I??

No I cant describe the dress because Bret reads this and hes not allowed to know what it looks like. Blame him not me. 

Magoo will be walking down the aisle with Bret at the beginning and Bret and his guys will all be in gray tuxes. Bret will also wear champagne and the guys Navy Blue ties and such. 

Our flowers will be Calla Lilies with some sore of Blue flower. 

My goodness that is a TON of information. See I skip a day and then unleash the flood gates the next day. 

Well there you have it. Most of what is planned for the big day. I will keep some stuff quiet so that I have more to blog about and you have more to read about. 

Until next time.. Do Good Things!

Mommy Monday.. am I doing it all wrong?

Happy Monday, at least for the next 33 minutes on the East Coast of the USA. I thought today I would do a Mommy Monday. 

I am a new mom, I mean pretty freeking new still. Magoo is about 10 months old and I consider myself new until he is 1. I cant help but feel like I am a mediocre mom. Maybe mediocre is not the right word. I feel like I could be a better mom. I mean my son is happy, He eats and loves to play and has a ton of people that love him. I guess in the internet first world I feel like I'm doing it all wrong. 

Every mom is different for instance I nurse Magoo, but i was formula fed. We buy the store brand diapers but I was in Pampers, I never went to daycare and Magoo was in at 2 months old. I guess I feel like I should be a more hands on mom. I mean I am there with him every night when he wakes up to nurse, Yes he still wakes up once a night. No i dont need to know how you got our baby to sleep through the night at 6 weeks old. 

I guess there are things I wish my Magoo did that I dont know how to help him figure out. Like sleeping through the night, We are trying to "sleep train" So when he goes to bed after ive seen him for 2 hours it breaks my heart to let him lay there and not pick him up but only pat him and tell him that mommy is here. I feel like I am doing him a disservice by going in and comforting him. 

Eating, this boy will share his food with you and also expect you to share with him. He HATES the bottle. He is getting the liquid gold I pump twice a day at work but he suddenly HATES the bottle. So now we are trying to figure out how to get him to have his milk besides nursing. I'm mommy, I should know how to get him to take the bottle. Or at least how to get his milk intake up. 

Nursing has also been a challenge when I had Magoo I NEVER saw a lactation consultant. NEVER once. The nurses didnt even help me with nursing. I have been figuring it out all on my own. I guess  I am doing a good job Magoo is a whopping 20 pounds and is happy as a lark. 

I dont know I guess as a first time mom I'm supposed to feel like I'm failing because my son is happy and healthy and has two parents that would give their lives for him and a ton for aunts and uncles and grandparents that would do the same. 

You tell me, how did you feel as a first time parent. Please tell me that I am not alone. 

Until Next Time... Do Good Things!

Im really bad at this...

So it has easily been over a year since I wrote a blog. and I've come to the realization that I am terrible at this! 

Really, really, REALLY terrible at it. But here come my excuses as to why I am terrible at this, Number 1 I had a baby and he takes all my energy by getting bigger and being adorable I mean look at this face how can you not fall in love with that smile.. He is just about 10 months old now and is literally the center of my world. 

Reason number 2 that I am really terrible at bloggin is that I work 2 jobs and the last think that comes to my mind at the end of the day is sitting down and blogging. because I highly doubt that anyone will want to sit and read about how I worked all day. 

Reason number 3 is that we are moving yet again. I swear after this move we are going to settle I am tired of moving all the time. Its almost like pointless to unpack every time,

Reason 4 is that I am STILL planning our wedding, I will try to do another blog on the plans for the wedding but lets be honest. It might not happen. Dont get your hopes up and then crushed when that blog either doesn't come or when it finally does show its ugly face is a year after we are married because I'm just not on my game.

And Finally

Reason 5 I dont think our lives are that interesting. we get up, we work, raise our son, and sleep. That is about it. I do some crafting here and there but honestly im not even sure anyone reads this silly thing. If you do read it leave me a comment and let me know its like we can be friends. 

We are trying to start a vlogging channel because that will be less time consuming, (HAHAHA) but we haven't edited any of the stuff we shot and its still sitting in the memory card feeling unloved. 

Listen, i can hardly spell (thank god for spell check), im not interesting in the least bit, and I an trying to figure out the whole mom thing. If you want to follow along while I attempt to track it all by all means please stay tuned. I may just have another one of these bad boys tomorrow.

That's another thing, how often are you supposed to post blogs? Once a day? Can you do more than one a day? Is there a rule about this? I demand to know the rules. 

Someone.............

Anyone....

Do i make the rules? That would be pretty cool....

Until Later..

Do Good Things!